This is not the "Glimpse" of the 5 part story I mentioned in the former post, that will be available soon though. For now, however, I feel I need to vent a little. And what better place to do it than on a blog right? Sure. Good. Okay.
Now, don't be scared, I'm not going to go off on a ranting spree here...I've just got a few things to get off my chest, and share with you. Will you indulge me? I hope so.
You might and might not know that I run and program a laser for my day job. I cut out steel parts for companies like Case/New Holland, Clipper, Alstom and various other big name jumbos. Said steel parts are then either cut with saws or bent with press-brakes and then finally welded together and painted, so on and so forth. I have no problem with the work. No matter how dirty and rough it can get. I don't even mind having to re-program parts because the flucking engineers are lazy fluckers. What I do mind and what I do have a problem with is the pay, of course, the six twelve hour days in a row and management's absurdly stupid ideas for the future of the company.
So, as my title proclaims, I have the Laser Blues. I feel like I'm going nowhere, and fast. I write to alleviate this feeling, among others, which is the reason for this post. Writing, for me at least, is an escape hatch from this world and all its stresses, all its fluckery, one might say. And I find I have to write a lot while I'm at work, on breaks of course, which I only get three ten minutes breaks during my 12 hour days. I write at work to still the frustration, to sort of heal myself as I blunder on through another long day. Writing is healing, in my opinion. Granted most that comes out of me while at work is very grim indeed, but what of that? At least I'm not roaming the place with a loaded 12 gauge shot gun or something, a thing I'd never do in the first place, and blasting my troubles away. Instead I blast my characters in these grim stories away. I take out all my pain on them, in other words. Okay, the place I work really isn't as bad as I make it out to be here, but it helps to prove a point. Writing is healing, writing is a tool for the mind to cope with everything else in this scary world. And besides, if done right, it can be an awakening. Something to make you want to get up in the morning, and want to finish that short story, or novel or whatever it is that you write. For me it helps me to stick it out at work for another loathsome day.
Writing can help you live, by God. Not every one is a writer, but everyone can write if they try, that is my belief. Anyone can write. Some have more talent at it than others, but anyone can jot down how they feel or what's pissing them off that certain day or just go on a ranting splurge. Whatever you choose, writing it down, or in my case, writing a story down that pertains to what's happening but never really stated, can help you.
Writing is healing...and healing is always good. Always...
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Bare with me
Please bare with me. I am currently writing a glimpse of a story I'm working on. It will be a possible 5 part horror/dark fantasy story when complete. This glimpse will be out sometime in the next week. Again bare with me. It's pretty good so far, I think and if you like the dark, you might think so too. I am trying my first outline with this one, so it's taking me a little longer to get a grasp on it. Please tell me what you think about the breif glimpse of a darker world I'm about to show you. Until then I'll leave you with a poem pertaining to the story.
Monsters
By
Lucas Pederson
Flesh and blood, blood and flesh
Monsters everywhere in a realm where death reins a vile stench
Beyond all worlds lies this place of ruin
Of decay and of horror
Beyond all human imagination this world holds domination
Afraid we must be of the creatures that dwell here
Terrified we all fear here
The man with an empty heart shall find his way here
What say you m'dear?...
Do you fear?
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Wicker
Sun spots upon ruined lenses that can not see
Where the empty souls inhabit...a wicker seed
Along a path of cannibalism sought to rot the decayed..
And here stands a man alone...his wicker face slack
Dead...worse over the way his eyes glisten.
Souls must leap to the heavens...but his remains chained...
The seed within...that wicker seed, that sick seed from nowhere,
Germinates a colony of horror...He is dead, but yet not quiet...
Cordwood, perhaps, resembles his body...its continuous stiffness.
He feels as if he were wicker...he feels life out of reach...
In a world full of hate and ruin and death he knows life is not
Possible
Life, that slippery carnivore, cares not of this man whom lay as
Wicker
A seed...a single seed...and the entire world collapse…
Where the empty souls inhabit...a wicker seed
Along a path of cannibalism sought to rot the decayed..
And here stands a man alone...his wicker face slack
Dead...worse over the way his eyes glisten.
Souls must leap to the heavens...but his remains chained...
The seed within...that wicker seed, that sick seed from nowhere,
Germinates a colony of horror...He is dead, but yet not quiet...
Cordwood, perhaps, resembles his body...its continuous stiffness.
He feels as if he were wicker...he feels life out of reach...
In a world full of hate and ruin and death he knows life is not
Possible
Life, that slippery carnivore, cares not of this man whom lay as
Wicker
A seed...a single seed...and the entire world collapse…
Dashing Through the Mud
It rained, it rained and just when I thought it was done, it rained some more. It rained for five full days before finally giving up and moving on. Eighteen inches of rain flooded the ditches and sent the dry runs, creeks and rivers to swell and over flow the streets of many towns.
Never in my life have I seen such an unusual sight. One so close to Christmas the very thought of rain was ludicrous, at least to the northern half of the Untied States. A region where snow had dominated during this time of year, water now pooled and streamed. The water was bad all right. Bad, but by far not the worst. But I'll get to that later.
For now let me introduce myself. My name is Tyler Logan and I am lucky to be here writing this today. You see...I almost died two days ago. Yes! That's right, I said I almost died, and now I am here to write down my tale. I'm not afraid anymore. I'm not afraid of what happened, or am I afraid of what might still happen again. I pray to God this is the end of it, though.
December 18th was the day the rain began. It was the day everyone saw as odd and a bit frightening, that with global warming and all that happy-do-DA. The first day, though, wasn't so bad. It rained, okay fine. That sort of thing happens in the winter sometimes. But then came the second day, then the third and fourth. My basement flooded and it didn't matter how hard I worked at pumping the water out it just kept seeping in, like a cruise ship with a couple pin holes punched in the bottom. It just kept coming, so I gave up trying and let it flood. My hot water heater drowned, but otherwise the main house remained dry. I considered this a blessing then.
My wife, Liz, spent most of her days looking out the window and watching the rain fall. She was a believer of white Christmases. And the more it rained the more her spirits shriveled. By the fourth day she went mad, something I saw coming, but never really noticed. I had been too caught up in the oddity of what was happening and of course my job. I'm a machinist for a local metal fabrication company, and, rain or no rain, I needed to work.
On the fourth day I came home from work drenched from head to toe just running from the car in the driveway to the house. Mud caked my boots all the way up to my shins. My gravel driveway had become a bog. The car, a 2003 Cavalier, still sat out there near the end, looking like a forlorn, dying animal, doomed to sink further and further into the mud until it was swallowed whole.
The house was quite when I entered. And after the few minutes it took me to slip out of my muddy boots and wet overalls, it remained quiet. Something was wrong here. I felt it like a chilly fall breeze against the back of my neck. My stomach felt as though it wanted to twist and writhe within its confides. My heart thrummed faster and faster as I strode through the house.
"Liz!" I called. A coppery taste filled my mouth, but I ignored it.
Liz didn't answer...and the house remained silent.
I found her out on the back porch of our house, face down. Mud, dark and slimy slathered her from her feet to her waist. At first I only stood there, gaping down at her as rain cascaded from the sky. All her hair was gone and something black was smeared across the back of her head. I stepped outside to see what it was and recoiled so fast I stumbled backwards, nearly lost my balance and then righted myself. But it wasn't the black smear that made me do this, it was the mud. The mud was moving, shifting, around her as if in an intimate embrace. What the fuck is this, I wondered, terrified. I stared down at it, dumbfounded for a moment and then skirted around Liz's lower half to get a better look at that black smear. The mud made an ominous hissing sound and I glanced in its direction. It was now sliding up her body toward me. That's when I saw Liz's feet, or what was left of them. The bloody clumps lying there on the wooden planks of our porch were no longer recognizable as feet.
I moved away quickly. As I did my eyes happened to lower to Liz's bald pate, then to her neck. Here I saw what killed her. She had somehow mustered the courage to cut her own throat. There was no blood, but I supposed the mud had something to do with that.
It glopped toward me, moving over Liz and leaving raw meat behind. The black smear remained a mystery to me, as it will forever I suppose. I remember screaming at this point, loud terrified screaming coming directly out of my mouth.
I hopped off the porch. My feet hit the ground but slipped out from under me on the wet grass. I landed flat on my back. The wind in my lungs whooshed out in one giant gush. Pain spread across my left leg. I desperately tried sucking in air but for one Godless second I thought that perhaps I never would again. Then it came, in constricted sips at first and then in hearty gulps that only lasted a moment before the pain in my leg drove everything else out of my mind and I wailed in agony. The pain crept up my leg toward my crotch. Screaming I managed to get to my feet. Mud clung to my left leg in an oozing mass. I swiped it off with my hands the best I could, trying to ignore the searing ache it sent through my fingers and palms to do so, and lurched around the house.
I didn't want to look down at my leg, but found I had too. I had to see what the mud had down to me. It wasn't as bad as I had thought, but bad enough to send my gut fluttering and my gorge to rise. What was there flapped and squished. It was amazing I was walking at all.
The rain pelted down on me as I made my way around to the front of the house. If I could only get to my car. If I could get to that-
The car was now longer at the end of the driveway. In fact there appeared to be no sign of it anyway.
"The mud swallowed it." I muttered to himself. This sounded fun, even to myself and I broke into a bitter sort of laughter. A helpless, lost laughter.
The mud that was my driveway rippled, and then began to wave as if it were a lake caught in a gale. Waves splashed at me and I jumped away, startled. There was no way out. This mud, this strange evil mud, had me trapped.
But then I realized something. A flicker in my mind, an image I understood at once. I glared at the living mud. Now the road itself was a wavy mud slick. I turned and entered my garage, panting, trying to hold on to what sanity I still had. My eyes instantly found what my mind had pictured only a moment before. In the rafters, dangling by bailing twine, hung our canoe. Something slammed into the big automatic door at the front of the garage and I screamed. Sweat streamed down my face in a flood. Was I really going to try this? Yes. Yes I was, by God. Liz appeared before my mind's eyes and I had to stifle a horrified moan. I saw her body, stripped of its skin all the way up to her waist. Tears filled my eyes.
Thud! The mud was trying to get in. The door began to buckle inward.
Wasting no more time I drug a ladder over, unhooked the canoe and hauled it down. The paddle was already in the canoe's' body. I carried the canoe over to the automatic door.
Thud! Thud! Soon the door would give and I'd be swallowed up like my car.
I sucked in a breath, stepped to the right of the big door, and pushed the UP button.
The door shuddered and then began to ascend. I hopped in the canoe as the first of the evil mud slithered under the crack toward me. With the paddle held poised and ready, I watched the door lift up and the mud pour in. I just hoped this would work. If not...well...
It did work, though. The mud came in and as it flooded the garage it also sent me afloat on my old canoe. The one Liz and I used so many times when we were much younger, but once into our thirties forgot about. The mud was like thick, gritty water under me, scratching at the bottom of the canoe. It was only a couple feet deep by what I judged against the automatic door jam, but that was more than enough to eat me alive.
I pushed with the paddle, propelling myself slowly toward the maw of the large doorway. It was easy at first. Then something in the mud took hold of my paddle and tried to yank it out of my hands. I managed to pull it free with all my strength. Tentacles of hungry mud shot out at me from the writhing mass under me. I hit them away easily with the paddle.
After a few minutes of this I finally started pushing myself out of the garage. Nothing grabbed my paddle. Once outside I had to pause for a minute to take in what I was seeing. Mud. Mud everywhere. Somewhere close I heard someone screaming. A shiver pulsed through my spine and I got moving again. The mud tentacles appeared not to care anymore. Perhaps, if they had a mind at all, they thought of me as an acceptable loss. At least that's what I hoped.
Soon I was in the road, pushing myself along at a gruelingly slow pace. It wasn't like moving through water, but through a muddy shallow marsh. But at least I was moving, I had that to be thankful for.
About three hours later I paddled into the small city of Cedar Rapids. Here the mud tapered off to nothing. I only had one problem after I'd landed on blacktop. As I was getting out of the canoe, one of those tentacles of mud burst out of the mass and wrapped itself around my right arm. Instantly it felt as though my arm was on fire. I shrieked and tried yanking myself free. It yanked back, hard enough to drag me just five inches from the writhing mass of mud.
"Gotcha!" Someone shouted and I caught a glimpse of silver before the hold on my arm released.
"C'mon! Get to the turnpike!" The person who saved my life was an older man, perhaps in his late sixties. His white hair a spiky disarray on his head. He was holding a machete caked with mud.
I followed him to the turnpike, which stood only forty feet away. From here we looked down. The mud, from what I saw, was only where I came in at. Otherwise, the city was safe. And the older man, whose name was Ed White, told me so.
Now, as I write this, the mud that killed my wife and damn near killed me too, has receded and sunken back into the ground from which it came. I just pray that summer, with all its glory, doesn't bring too much rain. But...nothing is certain in this life, is it?
The End
Never in my life have I seen such an unusual sight. One so close to Christmas the very thought of rain was ludicrous, at least to the northern half of the Untied States. A region where snow had dominated during this time of year, water now pooled and streamed. The water was bad all right. Bad, but by far not the worst. But I'll get to that later.
For now let me introduce myself. My name is Tyler Logan and I am lucky to be here writing this today. You see...I almost died two days ago. Yes! That's right, I said I almost died, and now I am here to write down my tale. I'm not afraid anymore. I'm not afraid of what happened, or am I afraid of what might still happen again. I pray to God this is the end of it, though.
December 18th was the day the rain began. It was the day everyone saw as odd and a bit frightening, that with global warming and all that happy-do-DA. The first day, though, wasn't so bad. It rained, okay fine. That sort of thing happens in the winter sometimes. But then came the second day, then the third and fourth. My basement flooded and it didn't matter how hard I worked at pumping the water out it just kept seeping in, like a cruise ship with a couple pin holes punched in the bottom. It just kept coming, so I gave up trying and let it flood. My hot water heater drowned, but otherwise the main house remained dry. I considered this a blessing then.
My wife, Liz, spent most of her days looking out the window and watching the rain fall. She was a believer of white Christmases. And the more it rained the more her spirits shriveled. By the fourth day she went mad, something I saw coming, but never really noticed. I had been too caught up in the oddity of what was happening and of course my job. I'm a machinist for a local metal fabrication company, and, rain or no rain, I needed to work.
On the fourth day I came home from work drenched from head to toe just running from the car in the driveway to the house. Mud caked my boots all the way up to my shins. My gravel driveway had become a bog. The car, a 2003 Cavalier, still sat out there near the end, looking like a forlorn, dying animal, doomed to sink further and further into the mud until it was swallowed whole.
The house was quite when I entered. And after the few minutes it took me to slip out of my muddy boots and wet overalls, it remained quiet. Something was wrong here. I felt it like a chilly fall breeze against the back of my neck. My stomach felt as though it wanted to twist and writhe within its confides. My heart thrummed faster and faster as I strode through the house.
"Liz!" I called. A coppery taste filled my mouth, but I ignored it.
Liz didn't answer...and the house remained silent.
I found her out on the back porch of our house, face down. Mud, dark and slimy slathered her from her feet to her waist. At first I only stood there, gaping down at her as rain cascaded from the sky. All her hair was gone and something black was smeared across the back of her head. I stepped outside to see what it was and recoiled so fast I stumbled backwards, nearly lost my balance and then righted myself. But it wasn't the black smear that made me do this, it was the mud. The mud was moving, shifting, around her as if in an intimate embrace. What the fuck is this, I wondered, terrified. I stared down at it, dumbfounded for a moment and then skirted around Liz's lower half to get a better look at that black smear. The mud made an ominous hissing sound and I glanced in its direction. It was now sliding up her body toward me. That's when I saw Liz's feet, or what was left of them. The bloody clumps lying there on the wooden planks of our porch were no longer recognizable as feet.
I moved away quickly. As I did my eyes happened to lower to Liz's bald pate, then to her neck. Here I saw what killed her. She had somehow mustered the courage to cut her own throat. There was no blood, but I supposed the mud had something to do with that.
It glopped toward me, moving over Liz and leaving raw meat behind. The black smear remained a mystery to me, as it will forever I suppose. I remember screaming at this point, loud terrified screaming coming directly out of my mouth.
I hopped off the porch. My feet hit the ground but slipped out from under me on the wet grass. I landed flat on my back. The wind in my lungs whooshed out in one giant gush. Pain spread across my left leg. I desperately tried sucking in air but for one Godless second I thought that perhaps I never would again. Then it came, in constricted sips at first and then in hearty gulps that only lasted a moment before the pain in my leg drove everything else out of my mind and I wailed in agony. The pain crept up my leg toward my crotch. Screaming I managed to get to my feet. Mud clung to my left leg in an oozing mass. I swiped it off with my hands the best I could, trying to ignore the searing ache it sent through my fingers and palms to do so, and lurched around the house.
I didn't want to look down at my leg, but found I had too. I had to see what the mud had down to me. It wasn't as bad as I had thought, but bad enough to send my gut fluttering and my gorge to rise. What was there flapped and squished. It was amazing I was walking at all.
The rain pelted down on me as I made my way around to the front of the house. If I could only get to my car. If I could get to that-
The car was now longer at the end of the driveway. In fact there appeared to be no sign of it anyway.
"The mud swallowed it." I muttered to himself. This sounded fun, even to myself and I broke into a bitter sort of laughter. A helpless, lost laughter.
The mud that was my driveway rippled, and then began to wave as if it were a lake caught in a gale. Waves splashed at me and I jumped away, startled. There was no way out. This mud, this strange evil mud, had me trapped.
But then I realized something. A flicker in my mind, an image I understood at once. I glared at the living mud. Now the road itself was a wavy mud slick. I turned and entered my garage, panting, trying to hold on to what sanity I still had. My eyes instantly found what my mind had pictured only a moment before. In the rafters, dangling by bailing twine, hung our canoe. Something slammed into the big automatic door at the front of the garage and I screamed. Sweat streamed down my face in a flood. Was I really going to try this? Yes. Yes I was, by God. Liz appeared before my mind's eyes and I had to stifle a horrified moan. I saw her body, stripped of its skin all the way up to her waist. Tears filled my eyes.
Thud! The mud was trying to get in. The door began to buckle inward.
Wasting no more time I drug a ladder over, unhooked the canoe and hauled it down. The paddle was already in the canoe's' body. I carried the canoe over to the automatic door.
Thud! Thud! Soon the door would give and I'd be swallowed up like my car.
I sucked in a breath, stepped to the right of the big door, and pushed the UP button.
The door shuddered and then began to ascend. I hopped in the canoe as the first of the evil mud slithered under the crack toward me. With the paddle held poised and ready, I watched the door lift up and the mud pour in. I just hoped this would work. If not...well...
It did work, though. The mud came in and as it flooded the garage it also sent me afloat on my old canoe. The one Liz and I used so many times when we were much younger, but once into our thirties forgot about. The mud was like thick, gritty water under me, scratching at the bottom of the canoe. It was only a couple feet deep by what I judged against the automatic door jam, but that was more than enough to eat me alive.
I pushed with the paddle, propelling myself slowly toward the maw of the large doorway. It was easy at first. Then something in the mud took hold of my paddle and tried to yank it out of my hands. I managed to pull it free with all my strength. Tentacles of hungry mud shot out at me from the writhing mass under me. I hit them away easily with the paddle.
After a few minutes of this I finally started pushing myself out of the garage. Nothing grabbed my paddle. Once outside I had to pause for a minute to take in what I was seeing. Mud. Mud everywhere. Somewhere close I heard someone screaming. A shiver pulsed through my spine and I got moving again. The mud tentacles appeared not to care anymore. Perhaps, if they had a mind at all, they thought of me as an acceptable loss. At least that's what I hoped.
Soon I was in the road, pushing myself along at a gruelingly slow pace. It wasn't like moving through water, but through a muddy shallow marsh. But at least I was moving, I had that to be thankful for.
About three hours later I paddled into the small city of Cedar Rapids. Here the mud tapered off to nothing. I only had one problem after I'd landed on blacktop. As I was getting out of the canoe, one of those tentacles of mud burst out of the mass and wrapped itself around my right arm. Instantly it felt as though my arm was on fire. I shrieked and tried yanking myself free. It yanked back, hard enough to drag me just five inches from the writhing mass of mud.
"Gotcha!" Someone shouted and I caught a glimpse of silver before the hold on my arm released.
"C'mon! Get to the turnpike!" The person who saved my life was an older man, perhaps in his late sixties. His white hair a spiky disarray on his head. He was holding a machete caked with mud.
I followed him to the turnpike, which stood only forty feet away. From here we looked down. The mud, from what I saw, was only where I came in at. Otherwise, the city was safe. And the older man, whose name was Ed White, told me so.
Now, as I write this, the mud that killed my wife and damn near killed me too, has receded and sunken back into the ground from which it came. I just pray that summer, with all its glory, doesn't bring too much rain. But...nothing is certain in this life, is it?
The End
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